FUCKING WITH THE LIGHTS ON

Jul 6

i
love
fucking with the lights on

i wanna
SEE yr
asymmetry &
discoloration;
freckles, moles,
marks; that tat-
too u got when u were
young &
never thought id
see

wanna
run my hands &
mouth over yr
stretch marks &
acne scars;
cellulite &
rough skin;
grip the hair on yr
back & shoulders,
feel the weight
of your belly or
flesh stretched
close to the bone,
stroke
that thing
the doctor doesn’t
quite know what to call…
want to
honor the
parts of you

weve
shamed

fucking in the
dark turns
bodies into
secrets, hands
groping, hips
grinding, tongues
licking bodies
into organs the
renegade sex
of our queer
ancestors

but

tonight
i don’t feel
inserection
when we are
inside eachother but
i cant see your
Eyes

if i am fucking
you i want to be
fucking YOU &
if you are fucking
me i want you to be
fucking

Caleb Luna

Caleb Luna is an artist, public scholar and theorist of the body. Texas born and raised, they have lived as a visitor to Huichin, Ohlone land (Bay Area, CA) since 2016, where they earned their Ph.D. from the University of California, Berkeley. They are an award-winning educator and scholar, the bestselling author of REVENGE BODY (Nomadic Press, 20222) and co-host of the podcast Unsolicited: Fatties Talk Back. Publishing, performing and curating across genre and medium, Caleb's cultural work reads, responds to and challenges tropes and discourses regarding race, size, sexuality and disability in media and culture. Ultimately, they are interested in engaging embodied difference as a generative resource toward fatter understandings of collective freedom. Dr. Luna is currently a University of California President's and Andrew W. Mellon Foundation Postdoctoral Fellow at the University of California, Santa Barbara.

https://www.caleb-luna.com/

FUCKING WITH THE LIGHTS ON

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my desires disable me - casual disabilities as love access